I’m Still Here. I’m Still Standing.

Please be patient with me. This post may be jumbled and hard to follow, but, for the first time in a VERY long time, I’m reaching out to all of you. Usually, I write to help those who need it. Either by writing a topic one of you have requested, or something I feel might be what you need to hear.

This has hit me hard. It’s taken me this long to even begin talking about it, even with those I trust completely.

I recently found out my Grandma, who pretty much raised me, has 3-6 months left to live and they aren’t doing any treatments again. I know I’ve had her for way longer than most I know that have had cancer, but I’m not ready to lose her 😭

With everything going on these last few days, I feel like I’m losing my mind. BUT, I’m still standing. I’ve got an amazing support system of my boyfriend and his family; as well as support from those in my family, which I didn’t feel like I had before. I did. I know that. I guess I just didn’t feel like they’d want to ‘deal with me” and all my issues. Stupid, I know. They’ve told me they are always here for me and that I shouldn’t worry that they don’t support me, because they do.I’ve been through so much in my 25 years of life. Unimaginable, horrible things. I’ve also been through some things that, at first, shattered me emotionally, mentally, even physically. Some days I didn’t think I could go on. Didn’t want to. But I did. I managed to pick myself up, and keep moving forward.

Eventually, I even began sharing my story through blogging, with the hope that maybe what I had to say could help someone else, even just for a minute. The responses came slow at first, but now almost 8 years later, I’m still getting emails, messages, comments, about how my writing, my blog, has helped so many. That’s why I do it. NOT for fame. NOT for money. NOT to be ‘trending or popular’. Because all I’ve ever wanted is to help others.

#lunatunes #supportdog #family #emotionalsupport #familysupport #stillhere #emotionalbattles

Now is where I admit to all of you, I’m struggling badly with this and could use all the support and love I can get to help me through this.

A message, a comment, a silly image to make me laugh. Anything to help me deal with this.

I’m one of those people who always put others first, who hates asking for help; but I need your help. I need support to get me through this. So here I am. Saying please help me. Please.

2 thoughts on “I’m Still Here. I’m Still Standing.

  1. Invisibly Me says:

    Aw no, I’m so, so sorry about your grandma. What awful news. I can’t begin to imagine how you’re feeling right now and your poor grandmother…  ♥

    You have done so much with sharing your experiences and supporting others in your life and in your blog. I’m glad you’ve reached out now, but I’m sorry you’re struggling so much. And I’m sorry I’m late in reading this – I’m rather behind on my own blog as well as reading and commenting on others! I’m always around if ever you want to message, but there’s obviously no pressure (invisiblyme@outlook.com). Lean on your boyfriend, his family, your own family, be there for each other because they’ll want to support you, too.
    Thinking of you & sending lots of hugs and love your way,
    Caz xxxx

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    • spooniesanctuaryblog says:

      Thank you so much ❤️. With everything going on, my blogging has definitely suffered because while I have words to say, I just can’t seem to get the motivation to post lately 🥺. But I’m back and I keep trying. Just may take a while to get back with it.

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